My heart plummeted to the ground when I heard him say “heart failure”. Feeling dizzy, the rest of his words didn’t connect.
My thoughtful and calm response must have been full of panic, because the next thing I heard him say was that everything is fine and under control. He reminded me that heart failure is not death and that he’s had this condition before.
Last week our sweet eight year old retired greyhound, Talya, was diagnosed with cancer. She isn’t her perky self and every time I see her lying on the sofa my heart breaks a little bit more.
I’m feeling so very sad right now. I know it’s OK to feel sad, but I don’t want to wallow in it. Death is a natural course of life and I’m not in fear of it. I just don’t want others that I love to die.
Both my Dad and Talya are still here with us.
The only thing I have control over is my feelings. I don’t want to spend the next months or even years in mourning.
Even though sometimes I’m not so good at this, I will continue to do my best to be aware of my feelings.
And when I notice that I’m feeling sad because I’m thinking about the future, I’ll bring myself back to the present. I’ll imagine my Dad happy, and surround him with a healing white light. I’ll imagine Talya enjoying us petting her while surrounded by healing white light too.
If my thoughts have energy, then these are the only kinds of thoughts I want Dad and Talya to receive.
They deserve love and beautiful energy.
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What kinds of thoughts will you send your loved ones today?